Its funny, if you notice in my last post...just for my enjoyment by the way...I'm a heck of a lot whiter than all of the celebrities...by the way I did another one with a different picture of myself and the results were better...I just didn't like that picture of myself!(talk about a run-on)
Anyway, I've had a hard week so far...but God always prevails! I just need to trust...thats all I ever need to do! I've had a migrain all day today but sadly I don't have the option of staying in bed all day! My brother needs to get to work and the chores need to be done! I've been kind of down as well. Some of the choices I've made result in consequences that are depressing! For instance...where I'm at in school...that sucks...I totally didn't take the steps I needed to, to get toutoring or to be in study groups! Sometimes I feel like I catch up only to still be behind in my finances. Thats really not the case but...theres always something that comes up!(I'm very blessed though because God ALWAYS provides...just as he has these next two weeks when I'm off work!(tax returns came)) I'm really longing to be independent though. I need to get out and experience life on my own. I feel like living with my parents enables me to not be responsible(believe me I'm not blaming them...I'm just saying I give myself excuses because I have a fall back). I've been extremly emotional...it kind of sucks when you hit the scan button on the radio and then nothing is on so you turn it back to the fish and start crying...man I don't know whats wrong with me!(thank the Lord nobody was with me they would of thought I was CRAZY!) I really just think I'm lonely. I hardly see Cindi, Kelly, Michelle, Lydia, Alysha, Jessie, Emily, or Mackenzie anymore! The only one I see is Lisa...and don't get me wrong I LOVE her SO much! I think sometimes me and lisa find company in each others misery(just an expression were not miserable...just like to eat when bored and shop when depressed or sad)! I need some encouragement. I've never thought that I was words of affirmation, but I think that I am! I mean I'm not like some people bagging and fishing for compliments. I kind of hide in the backround when it comes to that kind of stuff...I like giving compliments to! I have a feeling that latter this week I'm going to wanna rip my hair out...RIP IT! AHHHHHHHH...I'M SO BORED!!!!!
-Lord, Help me to have patients! Help me to get through this rough week...I know I ask for a lot...and I'm always thankful that you provide. Help me to have confidence in myself. Help me to be bold and unpredictable.
Well, I think thats it for today. I'm very sleepy so I'm gonna hit the sheets!
SOMEDAY!
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